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Sometimes opportunity is floating around but you don’t see it. It comes like a warm drizzle; its light touch you may not notice. But then you feel something gently warming your heart and you look up to see it smiling at you. You think about where. You think about how and why and all the other questions that you heart likes to conceive. It goes, slowly touching some part of you, awakening some hidden dreams. Your eyes follow in silent pursuit but words fail to reach your lips. You hold out your hand but no longer can you catch it.



Old Scholars

If you listen to an old Imam or shaykh, you will sometimes find it tedious to sit through the long pauses, listen to the cracked voice or try to understand the heavy accent or the old language (i.e. word choice) but you need patience.

I remember when my dad used to play a CD in our car, loaded with a lecture from an old scholar and I would groan. He told me that besides the knowledge, that would teach me patience. And it did. He taught me that I cannot dismiss people if I don’t find them immediately appealing.

It’s easy to listen to people who are good, eloquent speakers and if they are providing authentic knowledge, then go ahead and listen to them.

However, sometimes the wisdom that you need with the knowledge is only found with the older scholars, the ones who have spent their lives learning, contemplating and teaching the Deen.

Random concepts (makes sense to me)

Some people refuse to embrace themselves, with their character and personality, their strengths and weaknesses, their positive points and their flaws because they think that embracing themselves as they are will hinder their progress.

What they fail to realize, however, is that self-love is a very important motivational factor to get you where you want to be.

If we did not love ourselves enough, how would we find the motivation to go to Jannah? Why do we want ourselves to go there? Why do we want the best reward from Allah?

Also, accepting yourself as you are does not have to mean that you are happy with your current state; it just means that you stop blaming yourself all the time and instead propel yourself forward using your strengths. It means being grateful with your body and appearance, your provision, your health and your opportunities because they are all gifts from Allah. As for your spiritual condition, then you can always improve it.

The road to Tazkiyah is always open.

“Indeed, your efforts are diverse. As for he who gives and fears Allah And believes in the best [reward], We will ease him toward ease.”

Al-Layl (92: 4-7)

Our diversity of personalities will most inadvertently affect what path we decide to take towards Allah. And instead of letting that be simply a coincidence, we can deliberately use our unique talents and abilities to aid the Deed of Allah.

But it starts with loving yourself enough to do the best and the willingness to turn that into the da’wah track of your life.

Disclaimer: By “path we take towards Allah”, I do not mean any sect and any ideology. We must adhere to the Qur’an & Sunnah and the path of the Salaf but what I do mean are the modes for da’wah. For example, if you are a good writer, you can write and publish Islamic articles or if you’re a good speaker, you can make youtube videos giving advice, etc.

My Little Sister

[Long-held thoughts, spontaneous post]

When I look at my little sister, I see me. I see her going to the same school I went to while wearing the same white hijab and the same style of a plaid uniform with black shoes.

I see her excellent Qur’an memorization, her above-average academic performance and her generosity to her peers.

What I don’t see is the messy, hurt, inherently timid girl who wants to feel free.

Basically, my little sister is a better version of me.

All of my positive childhood qualities are engraved within her, but in greater amounts and with more confidence.

Initially I used to be jealous of her, but instead of blaming myself for it like I used to, I learned to accept it as a natural occurrence and I now think about all the positive things that have come out of this rather hesitant journey of discovery.

My sister is not me and I am not my sister but I know that through our similarities and differences we can change something for the better.

She lights up my world with her smile and cute words and my goal is to help her grow into the being who can happily and confidently submit to her Lord, defy cultural stigmas and learn to be happy without guilt.

She is currently the better version of me, but I want her to be the best version of herself as well.


The Followers of Religion

Sometimes you think that the followers of religion will understand your concerns, your dreams, your caution, your fears and your efforts. Because they practice as you do and they strive as you do, but sometimes for them you are extreme and you stand all alone in an ocean of confusion where even the life buoy can’t wait to slip out of your grip because it is too overwhelming.


Short Thoughts on Complicated

I don’t know why, but I thought I’d share anyway. Usually after every Al-Maghrib class, I feel like my Iman is revived and my knowledge or spirituality has increased, or I have learned something that has brought about about positive changes in my mindset or character. This wasn’t really the case with Complicated, unfortunately. I don’t know why but this time, all the Fiqh differences made me kinda uneasy. I understand the whole concept of “differing in opinion is okay, but differing in the heart is forbidden” and “the differences in Fiqh are to be appreciated, not condemned”, etc. and I have always believed that and followed it as well. And in every other Al-Maghrib class that I took, this feeling never came, even if it was a Fiqh class. It was like frustration mixed with confusion, uneasiness and sadness. I’m not saying that I didn’t learn anything new; that would be major injustice to the class and the shaykh himself. I learned a lot of new things, no doubt, and there were some very interesting discussions in class that allowed me to think critically as well. But the main point is that instead of leaving with a content, happy heart, I went home with a confused and sad heart. Maybe I need to re-adjust my mind. Maybe I need to learn about the same issues again. In any case, this end result has made me even more motivated to study Fiqh. Fiqh is like a puzzle; I want to be able to understand it, if not solve it. At least we Muslims are taught to find good in everything.

Note: Most of the things mentioned above are my own personal thoughts and should not discourage anyone from taking this class. It is full of information, advice, rulings and more for the modern Muslim woman who is trying to live in accordance with Islamic principles and guidelines. Despite all my post-seminar thoughts, I would still recommend every sister (and brother) to take this class, because it is very educational. Some people have even said that they would take this class again, given the chance, so inshaAllah, my personal thoughts should not be taken into account when deciding whether or not to take this class.