I wish I could get over myself.
I wish I could control my emotions enough to stop hurting those I love the most. But I can’t. Because I’m irrational. After all the efforts I make, I ruin them in an instant. I spend so much time fighting against the forces that try to destroy my sand wall only to take the bucket of water and dump it myself.
I am imprisoned by my freedom, hindered by my obstacles. I can free myself but I don’t have the courage to. And it’s so much easier to hurt those who hurt me.
But I don’t want to hurt them.